I'm sorry.

I’m sorry that im so confusing and irrational. I’m sorry that i tend to put the blame on you and hurt you all the time. I’m sorry that i’m such a difficult and stubborn person. I’m sorry that i’m not happy enough to make you happy. I’m sorry that all i’ve been doing is saying sorry. I'm also sorry that im not going to stop saying sorry because i have too much to be sorry about. But most of all, i’m sorry that i came into your life and dragged you into this mess.

(Bella Swan is a bitch, Yes.)

10:15 am. I'm bored, tired, sleepy and all i think about is food food food!! Why?! Is it because of the vitamins i'm taking lately? I'm guessing yes but let's just hope not. I have to take it!! Even if it means.... gaining weight :| Enough about the food, There's a lot of things i should think about!! And that would be — a truckload of notes!! Dear study, Sometimes i love you but most of the time..... I hate you!! I hate you with a passion!! All i did was stay at the computer in the past 48 hours.. Very unproductive :|

TRAINWRECK

Exaggerating aside, This will make the top list of the worst times of my life, Yes.

For what it's worth.. Today. Somehow, somehow.

I felt 3% percent. Not bad, Eh? :| =)

And.... You know what's kicking major butt? It's how I'm not being able to watch movies lately. Inception, the most. And of course re-watch Eclipse. Second is me not updating my webzzzites. Third, To miss my fave series. It's sad. :| =(( I know there's no point at all telling everyone of you about this, Half of you doesn't care & the other half is just as happy. Hahahaha! =) You've heard that quote right..?? =p I don't know, It's just that i think this is the only output i have to zone out from my misery business even for a short while. At the very least. And i really need that, To the max full yeah.

This whole thing is driving me bonkers - Literally. I can laugh, Yes. Be happy. Laugh at the littlest things. But the feeling of having a knife stuck in your chest, You know that feeling? It hurts.. It. Hurts. So. Bad. Like an assassin, It can attack anytime he wants. At the same time, It's a monster eating everything good that's left of me. Love problems? School problems? Rest assured i can get over it all. But this one? No way to an easy ride. Uhhm since today I've decided to be positive, I will see the good side in everything. I will take this whole thing without feeling at ease.. Then move on & have my normal life back!! Yes, That sounds good. ♥

So help me, God. =)